20 Nov Womanly Beauty
Today, I feel ugly. Some days, I feel beautiful. We women tend to compare ourselves to our younger selves. I do this, too. When I feel ugly, it is because I remember my younger, single, motherless self. I was sexy, a size 6 with a flat belly and a gorgeous body that fit perfectly in my clothes….just the right amount of curves and was an eye catcher. Now, I am 42 and a mother and wife. My stomach is no longer flat. I have a few extra curves and I don’t turn heads like I used to. I have some gray hair sprinkled over my head. Although I still look young and have great skin, I sometimes feel yucky. I exercise and try to keep fit.
Silhouette of African woman standing at sunset
I have given birth to two precious and beautiful children and I wouldn’t trade them for the world. My husband says I am a “goddess” and I sometimes believe him. No one, not even when I was sexy and hot, ever said that to me. In fact, I was often called nasty names and made fun of when I was younger. I remember men saying things like my voice was annoying or that I had “fat feet” or that my hair was ugly. I wasn’t happy back then. I had no one. I was alone with all that sexiness and trim body. There were no sweet kisses from children. At night, there were no strong arms that held me. Holidays sucked. Every holiday , I spent alone.
I am happier now than I have ever been in my life. I have a reason for living and am surrounded by love. I get kisses several times a day. To some, I am important. I decorate for every holiday because I have love. My arms are sought daily and I am overjoyed because of it. I am called, “Mom”, “Mommy” , “Wife”, “Babe” and those words will never get old.I may not catch all of the admiring glances when I walk by but that’s ok. My womanly body has given birth and that, in itself, is beautiful. So, my ladies, when you feel ugly like we sometimes do, just think of everything you have now in your wonderful world…think of the amazing things your body has done and be proud. Being a Woman is awesome and I feel good .